Make Peace: Phase 3

Here is what I learned through surrender;

Let go of my ego, it gets in the way and is often the root of the bitter taste.

Trust He is guiding me and lean on him when fear ebbs in.

Offer him my whole self and dwell not in the past.

I now know that losing my job is not accidental. This is not something 'they' did to me, they have no power over me. I belong to God & He walks on my path with me. I learned about God's divine will and his permissive will. Things happen and I play a role in all of it but God has a greater plan and when we trust Him and stay focused on Him we can find peace. Through His permissive will, we increase the wanderings on our paths as we meander through our choices, veering right and left, but if we stay connected to Him our destination does not change.

It's sort of like when you are driving and using a navigation system and you miss a turn or sometimes can't take it because there is an accident or construction in the way, as you continue past the turn the system does not route a new destination, but it does reroute a new path. Sometimes when I am off in my own world in my thoughts, I miss recommended turns and Siri just keeps saying recalculating over and over, but what if it were a human? You'd hear increased levels of frustration for every 'recalculating' necessary. I imagine when I don't do something God planned for me to do, a voice from heaven saying recalculating. Somedays I don't hear that at all because I am following, but then other days I hear it several times always without increased frustration, (though it would be understandable) you only get the repeated recalculating and of course the time of arrival continues to change.

I am grateful for the experiences I had, the friends I made and the lives I may have impacted in some small way. This has been an incredible learning experience. I am humbled to been given an opportunity to lean into vulnerability and be fortified by it.

I still have occasions where I try to figure out what things I did to bring about this result, not in a what if I had done____ differently, but only to learn about myself through the perceptions of others. What did they see? I hope they saw Him through me at least some of the time, that is really the only goal that matters, at the end of the day - How did/do you show up?

Now that I have surrendered, what's next?